Guys tonight I’m not feeling great. As I may or may not have mentioned I struggle with social anxiety. I do get minor panic attacks when I’m really stressed but I don’t get them as often as I used to (which is great!). But I can worry to the point of me crying in a heap and making myself feel really unwell. Tonight I’m pretty stressed right now. Last week I had Monday off school and I have drama first period on a Monday. Drama is my least favourite lesson (as the thought of being in front of a large group of people is terrifying to me) and I was overjoyed of missing it last Monday as it was the only bonus of being not very well. But I wish I would have gone to that lesson because I found out tonight from my friend messaging me that our teacher put us in groups for an assessment we are doing tomorrow, and all my friends are in a group together and guess what I’m with none of them.
Anyway right now I’m sat in bed feeling sick. I not only am doing a drama assessment tomorrow and had no time to prepare or have any idea what it is we’re doing, but I’m also in a group of people that aren’t my friends and probably haven’t done anything and no one will have any idea what their doing. I’m getting really worked up and typing is the only thing calming me down. My throat is dry, my hands are starting to sweat, my legs keep shaking and my chest is tightening. I know these signs all too well and I’m scared I’m going to have a panic attack. I need help from anyone, if anyone is ever in these situations how do you calm down? Typing is calming me down slightly but I’m scared that I’m going to have a panic attack and if I do have one it won’t help in any way sort out the problem. I know this may not seem like an actual problem to any of you, some may think I’m overreacting as there are people in the world with way bigger things going on than this. But I really am worried about this and would appreciate some help from all of my lovely readers.
I hope you are all feeling better than me right now but if you have anyway you calm down in situations that worry you please tell me. Thank you so much I love you all xxxxxxxxxxxxxx
···I know I’ve already done a post today but my one from earlier was meant to be posted yesterday really but I didn’t have time and I wasn’t planning on posting tonight anyway.